Need to say goodby to my family

The time has come to say goodbye and move on. I have changed and become this placid caring wonderful woman who has found herself. If you see me today you wouldn't even recognize me as I have changed so much. 

You have had your chance to see me but you chose not to. My boys are growing up and not once have you contacted them." Uncles " 

In life there comes a time when you have to leave the people who once said that they loved you behind. And I've done just that.  I am growing spiritually and need to be free and not carry any burdens or pains. 

I kept quiet so that you all could live your life and be free of this burden that I carried. I knew this day would come when I had to leave you all and I have forgiven you all from my heart, I hold no grudges, you just weren’t strong enough, to stand by me. I will never to this day why or understand why all the family chose to disown me. 

As you all knew the truth but still no one helped me when I asked for help and I never stopped asking. In the end it was up to me to help myself. You can ask the family why they chose to stay quiet when I spoke up at the age of seventeen as I could have been helped supported but you and the rest chose to ignore that but that's ok because deep down you must feel bad. I Know I have goals and dreams which I am working on and God wiling I feel satisfaction. 

Always stay happy, be truthful to yourself and look after each other as I have my life to live. I have big plans, dreams and I will get there one day and eventually my dreams ambitions you will all see. 

Who would have believed me if I said one day I was going to write and publish a book. I’m helping so many people and will continue to offer my services as an powerful advocate for sexual abuse victims. In life you do get rewarded with all those tears that you would have shredded I will be collecting my good earned rewards. 

One of the amazing gifts that I have being rewarded is Allah (God) who is deep inside me. I go to bed with the angels singing and walk with my guides. 

Got so much going on in my life and you just wouldn’t believe me. I’m surrounded by the spiritual world and I am going to one day use this wonderful gift that I have being gifted with to heal the masses in this world that we live in. 

Will always love you all. I meant nothing but you no what I've gone beyond caring.

The inner child within

Extract from my book: Felt it needed to be shared, and it does trigger, so be careful but let it heal you. 

Say these words in your heart and with conviction. 

The little child inside me, the inner me, has come out and it is up to me to free them fully. It wasn’t their fault, and I have to let them now that there are no secrets. It is my responsibility to take care of my inner child and I will help them. 

I close my eyes, and hold out my hand, to reach their hand. I hold it tight and will never let it go again; it is my responsibility to look after my inner child. By just talking to my inner child and telling them this, I will take the pain away. They want to be free of all this hurt. 

If you have suffered in this way, you need to be in charge too; you have to help the child in you, tell them in your mind, not to be scared and that you are here to protect them. Hold their hand tight, tighter and never let it go again. Send them lots of unconditional love. Tell them that you love them, that you will always be there for them, and will never let go of that hand. It is your duty as the owner of that child within, to be responsible for the child in you. 

Hope this helps anyone that needs to hear this message. 

Remember on your journey of life, God will always be at your side. Feel that breeze, that touch on your face, that feeling as that is God within. 

Love Sara Khan 

We all start off as strangers in this world

We all start off as strangers in this world that our creator created for us but in the background, unknown to us there is a lot of activity that goes on in the universe. Most of us have never met, some maybe never will but for those that have found that link will communicate with each other by thought and our souls will always have that deep spiritual connection. Unknown to us, our guides, angels will be planning away in the spirit world and they will feed us words via thoughts. We will only now what that is if we listen to our gut, those feelings and ask those deep questions as to the why we are so connected. But not everyone will have the strength to follow that gut and for those that do will find out the reasons when the time is right for the answers to appear. 

So that stranger that once was just that, will no longer be that as that connection would have being made and our souls will continue with the work via the universes until we are both ready to work side by side on this beautiful earth that was a gift from our creator. 

Love Sara Khan 

Knocking on heavens doors

Still remember the time my soul came out of my body and I really thought I was leaving this earth for good. In my mind I was begging for a second chance, I was pleading with my maker, asking for one more chance, promising him that I will continue with my peace mission. (When you are out of your body, you can't move you feel lifeless, you want to talk and it's all thought controlled). I was very scared and suddenly I felt my grandmothers soul appear as she kissed my face, I felt her skin touch mine, I felt at peace, I felt at ease and I was back in my body. I thanked my maker for giving me a second chance, and that's one of the many reasons I do what I do. I love each and everyone to the max. 

When our creator calls us back, we won't really have a choice and if it's your time to go, you will be called back. I don't think that morning was my time, then again no one is aware nor knows if and when. So make the most of your life on earth, as your here to learn the vast amount of lessons that you will eventually take back home,for eternity. 

I do miss my dearest grandmother and we will meet again one day. 

( God willing). 

Insha Allah, God willing and hoping she will be the one that stands at the bright white light to hold my hand and to take me through. 

Love Sara Khan

A story for Jumma, about rice and that path that I didn't take

Anything can trigger a memory from the past and for me it was the mention of rice. Twenty years ago, in my younger days, when I was free and very single, I was offered a job as a nanny with a well known rice manufactures. At the time of going to the actual interview I wasn't aware of their high status, as the agency didn't mention it, I was young and very naive, still am today. I went to the interview with two of my friends, in my small car that just about made it there. It was in a small village in London, we entered the house and made ourselves comfortable, as I'm a very natural person.The family immediately took a liking to me and offered me the job on the spot as I got on with their children. In the package they included a flat of my own and it was nice. But in those days, I wasn't this strong women that you see today and I was scared of change. I could have taken the risk, as I was alone in london and living in this one bedroom bedsit. I did have a job already too, in an hotel and I was coping financially. But I was scared to leave the friends that I had made, as I didn't really now of these people that wanted to employ me. They really desperately wanted me, as they kept phoning me and at the time I was too naive to understand why they would want me so much. I was loving in them days too as you master the art of hiding your problems and it's called having two lives. 

You see in life, our creator has given us that free will and many choices, different paths that we are able to choose from. If I had chosen to take that job, I wouldn't have met my hubby and had my lovely boys. I would have being on a completely different journey, as to what I am on today. 

"Life is a journey of many choices and each step that we take will lead us to a different path"

Jumma Mubarak and have a blessed friday. 

Love Sara Khan 

No more man made wars

It's Remembrance Day today, year in the memory of those who have been affected in all conflicts.

Let's say a prayer to those that have lost ensuring that people remember those who have given their lives for the freedom we enjoy today.

Irrelevant of creed or colour ...Let's pray for countries that are still at war and the many lives that will be lost because man hasn't learn't the art of communicating yet. May that day be soon, where everyone will learn to live in peace and harmony. Let's visualize a day that will be filled with love so all will sort their differences out. 

My message as always, let there be no more man made WARS and we peace activists will continue to spread PEACE. 

May God guide us all. 

"The world will hold a 2 minute silence but we will remember everyone that has gone to the spirit world before their time" 

Ameen 

Love Sara Khan

A story for Jumma-A tree of life

A tree has a life of its own, it's routes go deep into the ground, deeper into the earth that we sow our food and when it reaches the very bottom the routes will come back up to the surface, holding the tree very securely in place. As it sprouts it's branches, it will grow and it can become any shape or form that it is written in its destiny by Allah. The tree will also have that free will, that choice and those feelings like us humans, as its alive. 

In a way, we are all like trees and growing with the nutrient that feeds us to gain that knowledge that is all around us. Our bodies are held firmly by this higher force and our legs are grounded solidly to the ground that goes deep into the soil spiritually. Like a tree, we will also branch out and experience the four seasons of change as each one takes place. 

We are all protected by our creator as we are its creations, any shape or form. 

Jumma Mubarak and have a blessed Friday. Find it in your heart to branch out to experience the worldly gifts that have being placed before us. 

Love Sara Khan