My Hijab and my closeness to Allah, my creator

I met a brother a few years ago and when I was leaving he touched my head. In Asian culture that indicates that his giving his sister respect, a blessing. Was really heart warming and he didn't have to do that. I love helping and never ask for anything but means so much when you are given respect.

That day, that beautiful moment, I decided I must cover my head as it felt so bare. Never knew in a million years that I would become closer to my Deen. Allah wrote my destiny and he is guiding me by thought, feeling so proud of myself; my heart is crying tears of a new life, that joy. 

Allah (God) will never let me walk alone and will be there, every step of the way, as I've just entered the Islamic path a few months ago.

My head felt so bare. I was taking it very slowly before I covered my head as family were saying don't rush. But the power of Allah, that deep feeling is out of this world and I've got so much to learn. I started off wearing just a scarf on my head so that I could get used to it, as it was a big step and I was feeling nervous. 

Insha Allah I will get there, may Allah be pleased with me and if I make a mistake I do ask for forgiveness. 

I did this for a few weeks, my head was half covered and my hair was still showing. But It didn't feel right, so on 29th November 2012 I put on my hijab, I asked everyone on my Social sites and blogs to send me healing prayers as it was my first day wearing the hijab and where I work I was the only Muslim women working there. How would they react to the new me."

Accepting the Hijab is for me 

"I'm doing it for me and from my heart"

As I was driving to work, I was asking Allah for guidance and strength. I saw this eldery man, with an white beard in the car behide me. He was a Muslim and I felt that Allah had sent him on my path with the message, everything will be well and to give me that extra guidance that I needed that day. 

I walked into work, head held high and with the guidance of this eldery man that I had seen that morning. I have no idea who he was, but he gave me encouragement. Also Allah will never let me walk this journey alone and will be there, every step of the way. Insha Allah. God willing. 

I'm also so blessed to have brothers and sisters who walk my journey along side me. I had a few people look and some nice compliments, some didn't now what to say. I explained to a few who asked but in all everything went well. 

My hijab is my protection and that closeness to Allah, my creator whom I will return back home one day. 

Alhamdulillah "Praise be to God for creating such beauty"

Those silent tears within

I've silently cried deep down inside and if you look at this picture very closely, you will see in my eyes that this was my saddest moment that  day. This was the moment that I looked at my life and thought to myself, I just can't carry on like this. I need to live for me, my boys and my life time partner. 

From that precise moment, that week, those incidents that occurred that day, I decided that I was going to come first, live for me and the tears that came when I made that big decision was the worst that I had ever experienced

I'd cried so much I felt like this is it and I was at a total loss as each member of my blood family deserted me on my darkest hour but as I took those tiny steps that followed, one by one, my life slowly started to change for the better and a new life was born, the new me that you see today. 

Tonight I want you to pay attention to your eyes as they hold all your answers to your life and they are the closest that you will ever come to when communicating to your soul. 

Night and God bless

Love Sara Khan

New Year and New You

New Year and a new you new beginnings our creator made us all with love. If your faced with challenges and struggles in life. They are only temporary, as life changes with hard work and Allah (God) didn't put an ounce of badness in our destiny. We have brain and brawn & have the knowledge to choose from right and wrong each of us have free choices, that free will and to do the right thing. If you find that you have hatred for someone, turn it into love and you will find that it comes back from other sources in treble numbers.

Keep on spreading that vast amount of love and be at peace as life does get better.

Love Sara Khan

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Powerful words to conquer in life

Forgiveness, Love, Jealousy, Betrayal, Commitment are very powerful words and many of the above words you will have felt at some. 

The person that has and can conquer all these values and have had them imbedded in their hearts are the most powerful souls. 

We should all aim for this achievement in our lives and it is achievable.

Have a great day and look at your 

accomplishments that you have conquered in your beautiful life. 

Love Sara Khan 

Happy Lohri

Lohri (Is a festival, celebrated by Punjabi people of Indian )..And has many happy mixed memories for me as I was growing up. On every Lohri my lovely grandmother would buy jalabi (an Indian sweet) for all our extended families and my grandfather would give us gifts. But this soon changed when I married a Muslim and I was left out of all the family celebrations. It did hurt as I stood back and watched all my siblings getting gifts but for me it wasn't the fact that I didn't get the gifts, I missed the affection, the loving feeling, the atmosphere that I once had. 

Anyway, Happy Lohri to everyone that's celebrating today and if you've being forgotten, don't worry as you have God that will be looking down on you and he will never forget his creation that he created. 

Love Sara Khan 

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We are all travelers on this journey

We are all soul travelers on this journey of life, some souls we will meet and some we will walk on by, or miss accidentally. But we have all come to earth to learn the vast amount of knowledge that this world has to offer us and we will be taking the teachings back to heaven, that place, that home that will be rewarded to us for eternity. 

As you travel on this path, always feel and observe your fellow travelers auras, that deep feeling as they will bring you the little teachings for you to learn from. Ask as many questions as possible and without hesitation, as that one answer might be the changing of you. With the information that you receive, pass it on to the next traveller that crosses your path, so they too can learn and pass onto the many travelers passing them too. 

You will come across some travelers that will not understand each other's journeys, the words spoken of but don't criticize, as it may not be your time to travel alongside of them as yet and you both keep to your own paths. 

Just remember this life is a journey, an experience that we have come to earth to learn from and the vast amount of teachings that we will learn, we will be taking back to our creators house. 

Have a great day

and for once, quieten your mind to feel the presence, those feelings of auras all around you. 

Love and Peace

Sara Khan 

Need to say goodby to my family

The time has come to say goodbye and move on. I have changed and become this placid caring wonderful woman who has found herself. If you see me today you wouldn't even recognize me as I have changed so much. 

You have had your chance to see me but you chose not to. My boys are growing up and not once have you contacted them." Uncles " 

In life there comes a time when you have to leave the people who once said that they loved you behind. And I've done just that.  I am growing spiritually and need to be free and not carry any burdens or pains. 

I kept quiet so that you all could live your life and be free of this burden that I carried. I knew this day would come when I had to leave you all and I have forgiven you all from my heart, I hold no grudges, you just weren’t strong enough, to stand by me. I will never to this day why or understand why all the family chose to disown me. 

As you all knew the truth but still no one helped me when I asked for help and I never stopped asking. In the end it was up to me to help myself. You can ask the family why they chose to stay quiet when I spoke up at the age of seventeen as I could have been helped supported but you and the rest chose to ignore that but that's ok because deep down you must feel bad. I Know I have goals and dreams which I am working on and God wiling I feel satisfaction. 

Always stay happy, be truthful to yourself and look after each other as I have my life to live. I have big plans, dreams and I will get there one day and eventually my dreams ambitions you will all see. 

Who would have believed me if I said one day I was going to write and publish a book. I’m helping so many people and will continue to offer my services as an powerful advocate for sexual abuse victims. In life you do get rewarded with all those tears that you would have shredded I will be collecting my good earned rewards. 

One of the amazing gifts that I have being rewarded is Allah (God) who is deep inside me. I go to bed with the angels singing and walk with my guides. 

Got so much going on in my life and you just wouldn’t believe me. I’m surrounded by the spiritual world and I am going to one day use this wonderful gift that I have being gifted with to heal the masses in this world that we live in. 

Will always love you all. I meant nothing but you no what I've gone beyond caring.